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#20 in the Leverage!verse, "Resolve"

Hi, guys :)

Here's the next entry in the Leverage!verse :) Hope you enjoy it.... I'm just sort of taking my time with this one and writing it as it comes to me, unlike my other two stories which I'm trying to alternate steadily between. That's why I'm doing these as individual entries in a single 'verse, too... because I don't really see this series coming to an official *end*... It's just, whenever I come up with something for dom!wilson and sub!house to do... you'll see a new entry or two :P hehehehe....

Anyways, here's the next entry :) Let me know what you think :)

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Title: Resolve
Pairing: House/Wilson
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Rating: PG-13
Warnings: discussion of dom/sub themes, violence, dub-con
Summary: Chase gives Wilson some much-needed advice.

Wilson blinked in surprise at Chase's unexpected offer, a puzzled and uncertain frown creasing his brow. After a moment's consideration he finally ventured to ask in a slow, cautious voice.

"What, exactly... makes you think that you can help?"

With a slightly self-conscious quirk of his mouth, Chase glanced down at his lap for a moment before giving Wilson a rueful smile.

"I've... actually got a bit of experience in these matters."

Wilson's eyes widened in surprise that gradually shifted into recollection and understanding. "That's right. I remember, House mentioned that before. I don't know why I didn't think of it. You're... into this... this kind of thing..."

Chase laughed, shaking his head. "No, not really," he corrected. "I'm really not. I dated a girl once who was, and... well, I learned a bit about it from her... and for her... but, no... turns out I don't really enjoy the whole punishment and domination thing all that much. Just not really my thing. Not for me."

Chase was quiet for a moment, his smile fading as he gave Wilson a speculative look. "When did you decide that it... was for you?"

Wilson sighed, resting his head in his hands and closing his eyes for a long moment, shaking his head, at a loss. Finally, he ventured an uncertain, hesitant response, his voice halting and tremulous.

"I... I'm not really a hundred percent sure that it is," he confessed. "I just... just can't watch House hurt himself anymore. The whole reason I started this thing in the first place was because I couldn't stand to see what he was doing to himself. I was... trying to save him, but... I'm... not sure that's what I'm doing anymore."

Wilson was silent, waiting for some kind of a response from the other man -- but Chase was expectantly silent.

"I... I just couldn't stand it anymore. I told him that if he didn't let me take over -- start making the hard decisions for him that he couldn't seem to make -- I'd... well, I told him I wouldn't be his friend anymore... as… as grade school as that sounds."

He let out a nervous laugh, looking up to meet Chase's eyes -- and surprised at the utter lack of amusement he saw in the younger man's piercing gaze. There was an expression of alarm in Chase's eyes as he aimed a disapproving frown in Wilson's direction.

"I thought you said this arrangement was consensual."

A sick sensation beginning in the pit of his stomach, Wilson swallowed hard, a defensive frown forming on his lips.

"It is," he insisted.

"No. No, it's really not," Chase argued quietly, shaking his head. "Not if you actually told him that you'd... you'd dump him as a friend if he didn't go along with it..."

"He had a choice," Wilson cut him off defensively. "He didn't have to go along with it, and I don’t have to let him in my life, if it’s doing nothing but making me miserable and enabling him to self-destruct with my implicit approval..."

"Are you really this stupid, or does it just make you feel less guilty to pretend that you are?"

Wilson blinked, stunned to silence by the bluntly insulting words. Unfazed, Chase continued in an authoritative tone that left no room for argument.

"If your friendship -- your being in his life at all -- is what was at stake, then -- then, no. House didn't have a choice. Do you really think that he'd risk losing you, Wilson? You're the only friend he's got. You might have fooled yourself into believing that you had his consent, but you didn't -- not if those were the terms. And if you're honest with yourself, you already know that."

Guilt in his dark eyes, Wilson could no longer hold Chase's gaze. His eyes focused on his lap, Wilson swallowed hard, struggling to find the words to explain his actions.

"I wasn’t… wasn’t trying to hurt him. I just... I didn't know what else to do..."

"I know you want to help him," Chase acknowledged, his voice losing some of its sharp edge, and gaining a note of understanding. "But if this is going to work, then House has to have the option of backing out if he wants to -- if things get to be too much for him, or he gets scared by how much power you have, or… for any reason at all, really. He has to have the right to walk away. Otherwise, you'll end up doing more damage than good."

Wilson frowned in confusion, shaking his head in frustrated protest. "But if I leave him the option to back out, then he will -- the first time things get just a little bit hard, or I ask him to do something he doesn't want to do. If he has the choice to ignore my instructions, he will..."

"You might be surprised," Chase pointed out with a knowing smile. "From what I know of dominant-submissive relationships, Wilson -- House's personality makes me believe that he's most likely a natural sub. I think... I think he could benefit greatly from the leadership of a good, conscientious and dedicated dom -- and I think he wants that, even if he tries not to show that side of himself, because… because it makes him vulnerable. I’m not saying the entire idea was a bad one, Wilson. In fact, I think you might be onto something that could be very good for both of you in the long run."

A dark glint of worry shone in Chase's eyes as he shook his head, meeting Wilson's gaze and stating firmly, "But as long as he has no options... no choice in the matter... then there's no way this relationship can be what he needs. As long as he doesn't have a choice... then this is basically something you're doing to him against his will, and that means that there's no way he can trust you, Wilson."

"Oh, God," Wilson groaned, resting his head in one hand for a moment, his mouth twisted into a grimace of regret and disappointment. "I've ruined it, haven't I? There's no way this can work now." He looked up at Chase, shaking his head in despair as he admitted, "That's been the most difficult part of all of this -- getting House to trust me -- and no wonder he hasn’t been able to. It's all my fault."

"Can't argue with you there," Chase remarked, with an unapologetic shrug in response to Wilson's resentful glare. "But... there may be something you can do to fix things. It might not be too late."

Wilson's resentful expression faded into a hopeful, almost pleading question, as he waited in silence for Chase to explain.

"You might be able to just... back up and start over," Chase suggested cautiously. "But you've got to give the whole thing a complete overhaul. You've got to make it clear from the start that House has the freedom to walk out of it anytime he wants to -- without the threat of losing you."

Wilson opened his mouth to protest, the fears that suggestion brought about clear in his eyes before he voiced them.

"You're asking him to trust you with everything, Wilson," Chase reminded him sternly. "You're going to have to offer a little trust in return. You're going to have to trust that he won't walk out on you if you give him the chance."

Wilson bit his lower lip, visibly struggling with the idea, before finally sighing, his shoulders slumping with resignation, and nodding his acceptance of the truth of Chase's words.

"You're going to have to respect his limits... his dignity... if this is going to work. There have to be some limits to your power in the arrangement."

"There are limits, right now," Wilson hurried to point out, seeming eager to prove that he had not done everything wrong in his arrangement with House thus far. "We have a written contract that we both agreed to beforehand -- signed and everything -- that spells out exactly what's expected of him, and what I'm allowed to do..."

Chase nodded slowly in cautious approval. "And... the two of you came up with this contract... together?"

Wilson's silence was answer enough.

"Did you even discuss it before asking him to sign it?"

Wilson looked down again in defeat as he admitted, "Not... not really. I mean... we talked about it, but... but I didn't... give him the chance to change the rules, really. I pretty much just asked him to... to accept it, or..."

"Or be abandoned by you," Chase finished for him dubiously.

Wilson nodded in silent, dejected guilt.

"You need to draw up a new contract -- and he needs to come up with his own terms, for you. He needs to put in writing what he expects of you in this relationship, and the two of you need to discuss your limits. Before you assume a position of power in your relationship, you need to know what lines House is absolutely not okay with you crossing." Chase's voice softened with sympathy as he added, "And... I'm sorry, but... right now, I'm fairly certain you wouldn't have a clue as to where most of those lines would be, because right now House is just trying to do whatever he thinks you want, just to keep from losing you."

Wilson's expression was sad as he nodded slowly, acknowledging the accuracy of Chase's observation.

"I know he's... not happy with... with some things about... how everything has gone so far."

"Like the marks I saw on his back in the shower, for instance?" Chase suggested, a single eyebrow raised in dubious accusation as he studied Wilson's face, gauging his reaction.

Wilson nodded again in subdued silence.

"What did you use?"

Wilson's voice was hesitant and halting as he replied with reluctance. "A... a riding crop."

Chase sucked in his breath through his teeth, eyes widening in stunned alarm at Wilson's answer.

"He chose it," Wilson hurriedly pointed out. "He had several options... several less severe options, by the way... and he chose it. I deliberately let him choose, and that was his choice."

"Have you ever used one before?" Chase asked in a thoughtful tone.

"No," Wilson sheepishly confessed.

"I'm not surprised. You obviously had no idea what you were doing," Chase observed, again with stark, brutal honesty. His tone was severe as he informed Wilson in a tone of cool authority, "You should never leave those kind of marks on House after a punishment -- and you should only use physical punishment at all for certain very extreme circumstances that the two of you have already decided upon in advance."

"We did..."

"You both did, or you did?" Chase clarified, looking thoroughly unconvinced.

Wilson found himself once again without an answer.

"Yeah," Chase concluded with a decisive nod. "If this is going to work for the two of you, Wilson -- you're going to have to slow things down. Take a bit of a break right here, and study it out -- be sure that you both know what you're doing before you really get into this. I really think that a legitimate, healthy relationship of this sort might be just the thing to help House -- but if you don't know what you're doing, Wilson... you could really end up doing much more damage than good."

"Well... I did a little reading, on the internet..." Wilson ventured, uncertainty in his small, hesitant voice.

"No," Chase cut him off, shaking his head with a dismissive wave of his hand. "Can't trust half of what you read there. If you're looking at making a significant lifestyle change that's supposed to be somewhat permanent -- you can't trust it to the internet. You need to speak with a professional."

With a rueful, embarrassed laugh, Wilson said, "That's... sort of what I... thought I was doing."

Chase returned his own short bark of laughter. "No, that wouldn't be me," he insisted. "I know a bit, but I'm by no means an expert. But... I do know someone, if you'd like me to arrange a meeting for you. I think you should talk to her -- both of you. I think she could really help the two of you get this going in the right direction. She's basically a stranger to you both, so House might feel a bit more comfortable with talking to her than he would with the idea that I know anything about this."

"No." Wilson shook his head with a rueful grimace. "No, I don't think he'd like the idea of this conversation we're having right now..."

"I won't let on that I know a thing," Chase promised. "But I will put you in touch with my friend. You can tell him you looked her up yourself."

Wilson nodded slowly. "Okay," he agreed at last. "Thanks. Get me her information -- but I need to talk to House before I make a final decision." He was quiet for a long moment, before adding softly, "I'm through going over his head on everything. I'm going to do things the right way in this relationship -- starting right now."

TBC...

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I'm thrilled that Chase has given Wilson the smacks to the head he needs. Now, let's hope that Wilson can do something to salvage this. Looking forward to the meeting with the expert!

yeah, wilson definitely needed the advice... and he needs a little more, too... sorry it's been so long, but i've finally updated this fic :) hope you enjoy the next chapter, and thanx for your kind words :)

Glad Wilson realizes that House never has had much of a choice in this. *hugs* Thanks for sharing :)

yeah, someone needed to tell wilson straight what a jerk he was being... glad you enjoyed this update, hon, the next one is up now, hope you enjoy it as well :) *Hugs*

thanks for the great update. I'm really enjoying this story. Wilson is so clueless. :D

yeah, unfortunately he is... but maybe chase's advice will help him make a better choice... hope you like the new chapter, just posted it :) thanx so much for your kind words :) *Hugs*

Well Chase certainly got to the crux of the problem very quickly - that House really had no choice in entering into this relationship. I think in Wilsons defence its important to remember that this takes place just after the whole Tritter mess when everything was on the verge of falling apart and after he found House lying on the floor after an attempted suicide/accidental overdose. Even though on the show it was all fixed up by the next episode in real life it wouldn't be, this is Wilsons response to what he saw as a desperate situation for House. Like always with Wilson his intentions are good but his actions less so (I just saw Meaning again and I don't know what the hell he was thinking in that episode!)

Will be interesting to see where you take this next - I don't know if House is going to be thrilled to have yet another 'talk' about their relationship even if they do desperately need it...

Great story - I spend far too much time thinkng about this one :)

yes, i think you're very right here... wilson's motivations are very good... he wants to help house, to protect him... but the way he's going about it is not wise... thanx so much, hon, glad you liked this update :) the next chapter is up now, hope you enjoy it :) *Hugs*

THANK YOU CHASE!! Never really been a Chase fan, but you made me love the guy. ;o) Can't wait to see how this resolves.

*whimper beg* Update Used please... must find out what happens...

yeah, i never cared for chase until the later seasons :) glad you liked this chapter though :) the next one is finally up, hope you enjoy it as well :) *Hugs*

This chapter makes me happy. :D I'm looking forward to the meeting w/ Chase's expert!

hehe... glad you liked this chapter, hon :) *Hugs* the next one is finally up, hope you enjoy it :)

Thank goodness! Thank you, Chase! Bring on the dominatrix... ;-)

hehehe... glad you liked chase's input, hon :) *Hugs* the next chapter is finally up, hope you enjoy :)

"Are you really this stupid, or does it just make you feel less guilty to pretend that you are?"

That pretty much sums up my feelings towards Wilson in this story, well the whole show actually.

The sad thing is, I highly doubt that Wilson is capable of doing what Chase has described, at least within the confines of his characterization in this fic.

Not dazzled. But definitely hopeful.

thanx for your comments, the next chapter is finally up, hope you enjoy it :)

maybe at least wilson can learn a few things and improve, though he'll still always be wilson :P

Chase is my hero! Finally someone to put Wilson in his place and tell him how disastrous the things were that he's done to House

yeah, wilson needed someone to call him on his behavior.. he means well, but he's a little too sure of his own ability to know what's best for everybody else... glad you enjoyed the chapter, hon, the next chapter is up now :) Hope you like it as well :)

Poor WIlson, poor House. They really need to sort this out.
But I can't imagine how House would talk about things like this with a girl.

yeah, it would be difficult for him... but he's wanting to keep wilson, so that gives him a little more impetus to do so :P hope you enjoy the new chapter, i finally updated :) *Hugs* thanx so much :)

Good idea to ask somebody who knows about those relationships. Thanks a lot for sharing your great Chase and his good ideas. Maybe there is no all hope lost.

yeah, chase was able to help some, and wilson is getting yet more help in the new chapter i just posted, hope you enjoy it :) *Hugs*

Fascinating stuff. I passed on your LJ address to an author friend who is writing a dom/sub story.

The only thing is - you write such dark stories and you have such a cute LJ. The pink and blue always makes me smile.

Do they have their story up yet? I do enjoy dom/sub, can you give em the adress?

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Ahh, good, this could likely elemenate a lot of the problems they have now. Mind, I do agree with Wilson...at the start of this, if House had had a true choice, he would have said no, but now, after he has 'been in the program' a bit, i think he is more likely to stay.

yeah, i think house is too afraid to lose wilson to back out of it completely now... thanx so much, glad you enjoyed this chapter... the next chapter is finally up now, hope you like it :) *Hugs*

This makes me very happy. I feel so much better about what Wilson is doing. Little does Wilson know House really had no choice in the punishment. I hope that comes to light again. I'd love for Wilson to know why House chose the riding crop.

I liked the way you tied in the Chase and the dominatrix episode. Wilson thinking Chase is into it when Chase was just trying to please his girlfriend. That was a very nice touch the way you connected it to this. I like Chase in this. I think the Chase's dialog is perfect! :D

Great update!

thanx, love, glad you like the way i used chase in this chapter... and wilson can only guess at house's past and what effect it's having on him in this situation :(

glad you liked this chapter, i've finally updated this story again, hope you like it ;) *Hugs*

Thank you! I was worrying that Wilson's idiotry wouldn't be checked and that would ruin House completely. Very true to canon, I might add, as Wilson often screws with House "for his own good". Chase is awesome - I love Chase!

yeah, wilson needed to get called on it... glad you liked this chapter, hon :) *Hugs* the next one is finally up now :)

Excellent. Very well done, and accurate. Chase did a good job of opening Wilson's eyes. Now let's see how Wilson handles things... *squees*

thanx, love, glad you liked it and found it accurate... now wilson needs to try to straighten things out... hope you enjoy the chapter i just posted :) *Hugs*

this is my first fic I have read with Chase in it....he is usually a character that is just "meh" for me so I avoid fics I know he has a part in. You made me like him and want to read more fics with him in it!

I LOVE the direction this is going. I am torn between anticipating the suspense and wanting it all NOW! I really like the way you are unfolding this and not just jumping in PWP. For this one, the slower narrative is fantastic.

thanx, love, so glad you're enjoying the direction it's going... i've always felt the same way toward chase, until just recently :) the next chapter is up now, hope you enjoy it ;) *Hugs*

I said it before, but ThankGod for Chase. I am so glad he put Wilson in his place, and is pointing him in the right direction. Great Job!

yeah, someone sure needed to :P thanx so much, hon, glad you enjoyed this chapter... the next chapter is finally up now, hope you like it as well :) *Hugs*

At last a voice of reason to help Wilson from Chase. I feel like Wilson and House can get on the right path. I'm adoring you at this moment for this chapter.

This chapter was very hard for me to read. I have been very sympathetic towards Wilson throughout this story so far. I think it was almost just as hard for me as it was for Wilson. In fact this page has been open for hours because I knew what was coming. I hope that things start to work out better for both House and Wilson.

Thanks for the new chapter.

well i'm glad that you were that into the story, but sorry that it's difficult for you... wilson needed to hear it, because although he means well, he's not been going about this right and could end up doing some serious damage :(

thanx so much for your kind, thoughtful words... the next chapter is finally up, hope you enjoy it :)

I've been loving this story from the start. Admittedly, Wilson has kind of messed up the whole idea of dom/sub relationships. I like how he 'researched it on the internet' first. We all know just how accurate random web access can be. I can just imagine what would come up if I googled domination. Hehe.

Now that Wilson has finally realized his tyranny, combined with the evidence of guilt I've seen throughout this series, I think that there may be a chance. Once again, Wilson's intentions were good, but he took a wrong turn and was too stubborn to ask for directions. Luckily Chase showed up before he completely ruined everything. I hope House is receptive to Wilson's revelations. I would really enjoy reading about a true domWilson/subHouse interaction. Great job, girl!

yeah, wilson totally *meant* well, but didn't really know what he was doing going into this... maybe now things will be a little better for him and house...

thanx so much for your kind words, hon, glad you enjoyed this chapter... i've got a new update up for it at last, hehe, as well as my latest two dark redux updates... hope you enjoy :) *Hugs*

*glomps Chase*
Nice that he was able to smack Wilson with the proverbial newspaper (okay, more like beat him over the head with it). Now maybe he can at least start to get back on track and maybe House can have a little fun with this set up, too!

yeah, wilson needed someone to make him wise up a bit... glad you enjoyed the chapter, hon :) *Hugs* the next chapter is finally up, hope you like it as well :) *Hugs*

Oh wow... I have *no* idea how Wilson is going to get House to go see the professional with him. It'll be hard enough to get him to do a consensual arrangement...

Still, good chapter!

yeah, it might be hard, but not as hard as you think since house is so eager to make wilson stay with him :( glad you liked this update, hon, *hugs* the next one is finally up, hope you enjoy it :)

I just started reading this a few days ago and now that im caught up i figure i should comment haha
anyway..this story is great!! one thing about thier relationship that was really bugging me was the whole 'do it or i leave' thing, so this chapter made me really happy XD
oh and btw..im surprised they're still able to get it up after all the sex they have been having hahha
wonderful story, cant wait for the next chapter! (:

glad you've enjoyed it so far, hon... and yeah, wilson's intentions have been good, but he has been making a lot of mistakes in not giving house much of a choice... thanx so much for your kind words... the next chapter is finally up, hope you like it :)

Finally!! I appload Chase for stating the obvious truth - you blackmailed him into this, Wilson!! [couchmoroncough]
I really liked this, with Chase pointing out the flaws in Wilson's logic (all of the considerable number) and forcing him down from the high-horse of self-rightous power. I really liked that part. ^__^
I know, in this fic Wilson doesn't really want to hurt House, but he hasn't exactly not-hurt him since this thing started. And his guilt doesn't really change anything, the proof on House's back (hope those won't scar).
So, considering that Wilson has finally taken his head out of his ass and is on the right way (hopefully) to fixing things, I'll take a moment to say one thing: Good luck, you idiot. ^__^

I just don`t get it why so many of you think that Wilson is the bad guy in this story.

I mean he is really trying to help House to get his life in control again. It does not feel right to blame Wilson for not beeing a professional dom with House if he has never been in a D/s relationship before.

A man with more experience in such a kind of relationship probably would have handeled some situations different.I agree.

BUT:

The whole scenario is new for Wilson as well as for House. Is is pretty natural for both of them to make mistakes at this early time of their new relationship.So why isn`t Wilson allowed to make his share of mistakes?

And as far as the "blackmail" argument is concerned:
What other way did Wilson possibly have to make House change his attitude?

I just re-watched the Tritter arc season, and I had almost forgot, how mean Wilson has been treated by House during that time...I am pretty pissed at House right now ;-) I mean Wison has time and time again tried to support House as a friend and to make him realise that he is on a dangerous, self-destructive road.

Unfortunately, as we all know, convincing House of doing something he doen´t want to do isn´t an easy task.I can not think of any other way Wilson could have choosen to stop House´s behaviour and at the same time continue with their friendship.

And again: You can not blame Wilson for making beginners mistakes if he actually IS a beginner.

Also I want to point out another aspect: I think it is more like House- by his attitude and acts- is forcing Wilson to act as a dom, than Wilson is wanting to be one.

"So, considering that Wilson has finally taken his head out of his ass"
IMHO Wilson has never had his head in his ass.He was trying to figure a way to help his best friend, even if it meant changing both of their lifes comletely.Not many people would make such a decision.

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